When you’ve been abused for a very long time, you begin to doubt if you are worth it, as a person. I used to be very beautiful, fun-loving, daring, and full of life, the first 16 years of my experience. And then I met Michael. And he became everything about me. Every move I made, Michael had a say. The way I dressed, the way I acted, the way I spoke, and all, it was him, for him, and to please him. The “Kim” that I was, it was gone. Just because of love, or so I thought that it was love.
Even if my marriage was a total failure, I have five kids that I love more than anything in this world. Sometimes, I think about regrets. I regret having met this monster who gave me my five children, but it is what it is. This is my life, and part of it is everything bad that happened to me during my marriage. What I will never regret, though, is bearing these five kiddos. They have been the light for me at the end of the tunnel.
It is a challenge for my husband and me right now more than ever since we have to stay at home, work from home, and we have five kids to handle simultaneously. We always wanted to have a big family, and we agreed that ours would be at least six kids. I am pregnant now, and our kids are all devilishly adorable. I mean that in a good way, sometimes. Hahaha! Kidding aside, the house is in constant disarray, but it is our home, our sanctuary. And as a family, we are learning to cope together during this most terrible time.
And so I caught my husband yet again with a mistress. Mind you, it was a “pregnant” mistress this time, and yet again, I have a sarcastic look on my face right now. This is not his first extramarital affair. It’s not even his first mistress whom he got pregnant. This is his third whore – and when I mean whore, he found her (well, they sort of found each other) in a gambling house where she worked as a call girl. Seriously, literally. Continue reading “Loving Myself More – A Personal Story”
Hi! And yes, I’m back again. I was the one who wrote “Loving Myself More – A Personal Story,” and now I’m here to talk about my mental health, moving on from my broken marriage of 22 years (whew! What a long and stressful life that was for me) and loving myself. Continue reading “Loving Myself And More – A Personal Story Of Moving On From The Heartbreak”
If you’re feeling tense all the time even on the little things, it can lead you to feel stressed chronically. It has a negative impact on your physical health like suppression of the immune system and being at a higher risk of contracting heart diseases. According to Andy Tix, Ph.D., “When we experience stress, our sympathetic nervous systems are activated. Our bodies direct stress hormones such as adrenaline to respond. Salivation decreases, perspiration increases, breathing quickens, heart rate accelerates, digestion slows, blood pressure increases, and immune system functioning lessens.”
Not only that but it can also worsen your psychological state and maybe the reason why mental health illnesses like depression and anxiety will surface. It is indeed alarming.
Are you wondering right now why you feel unhappy and dissatisfied? Somehow, you are isolated from a party that you’re at, feeling alone despite the people surrounding you. At times, even if you’re with your family and people you love, you feel senseless and incomplete. You begin to ask yourself, “How can I feel whole? Why is it that I don’t feel whole?”
They say it’s impossible to lose one hundred pounds. Well, it is impossible to lose one hundred pounds in one month, but it’s possible to drop it in six to eight months if you do it right. You can lose weight healthily and for good. Are you ready to know the secrets to total wellness and to lose one hundred pounds?
Who says it’s impossible to lose 100 pounds? A lot of people have done it. Take, for instance, Sharon Osbourne – she underwent gastric bypass. But that alone cannot make you lose 100 pounds. It is hard work and effort to shed off the weight is that made Sharon release all her unwanted fats. Andrea Polard, Psy.D also advises, “To make happen a long-term commitment, choose from the path only the suggestions that appear doable and relatively easy.”